Friday, September 3, 2010
I Suck At Finances
Actually, I'm sort of a disaster at anything that requires my focused time and attention, because honestly I make no space in my life for such things. Mornings and afternoons are scheduled to homeschool work and activities. The gaps of time that I leave unscheduled for children to play and create, I seem to fritter away instead of scheduling time for the work for which I hold myself accountable.
The poor results create waves of anxiety and frustration for me. The avalanche-worthy mountain of paperwork that is my desk, the constant fire-fighting of taking care of things that should have been done yesterday, the fines from late-paid bills, even the stress of never really quite understanding where we are in the broader financial picture.
Years of being organized and great at attention to detail reminds me that my skills for getting things done exist. Somehow, I'm not making time or priority for important tasks. What I struggle with defining is why I don't make time. Am I lazy? Are my expectations for what I can do in addition to a full homeschool day totally unrealistic? Am I creating to do's that are actually unnecessary? Do I spend my time on the wrong tasks?
These are questions I'm not even sure how to find answers for, though I keep looking. How about you? Do you struggle with similar issues? How do you handle the drone of logistical tasks in your life? Any insights to share with me?